Is it normal if i can't wait for my affair with this guy to be over?

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I have no idea what to call what I have with this guy because its more than a fling but its not an official relationship so I call it love affair? Idk but the funny thing is when I'm with him, we'll be laughing or talking and I turn around and whisper to myself "haha *whispers I can't wait til its over". Not that I am being two faced and pretending to have a good time because I am, I am just like wow we're having a good time but I wonder how it's going to be when it is over. But then again I say "I can't wait til its over" like I want it to be over already although its going well. I figured maybe this is too good to be true that I want something bad to happen? After all, I am a girl and an advocate for false stereotypes but being in this affair got me realizing huhm, I think we do like that tension feeling naturally; trust me if I do, every girl does. So I feel like that is the answer to why I am thinking it to be over. Its also a feeling of wanting to be over him to have that feeling of freedom again but right now, I'm not legitimately over him but I feel it coming soon (or maybe secretly hoping it does...idk?). I want the affair to be over but how can it when I am still feeling him? I don't get it and I don't know what to do. Knowing I have no filter, I'll just end it right there but what if I regret it since I wasn't legitimately over him and us? Obviously, I'm lost about where I stand.

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  • NeuroNeptunian
    12 years ago

    No, most people don't want that kind of thing to end. It may be possible that you DO believe it is too good to be true. Ever dealt with self-esteem issues? Maybe you do not feel that you deserve to have this good of a time.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      12 years ago

      Hmm sometimes I do feel like I can be better for him, but at the moment I don't feel like changing for anyone.

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  • BluntsRolled
    12 years ago

    Stopped reading after:

    "trust me if I do, every girl does"

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  • Enkeli
    12 years ago

    Have you had bad relationships in the past and maybe having trusting issues? That could contribute to the surrealness of the affair and that it cant possibly last without a flaw. Otherwise you may feel that you're falling into a trap and you dont want to get yourself hurt. Just keep yourself inreach of the relationship, but don't be totally available to him. Write down the pros and cons of the relationship and see if you and him are the real deal or indeed just a fling or affair.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      12 years ago

      By reading the part where you said I'm falling into a trap and don't want to get hurt, I can tell you that I have this thing where I lack self-disclosure. It's just once I feel like we've been getting too close, I'm like whoa okay I need to stop because I fear sharing my feelings will result into betrayal later on, like they can use my info to attack me. Because we're only seeing each other and nothing official, I don't want to get too close to him. But I don't know if that contributes to why I think of it being over. I haven't had real relationships in the past but have been involved with bad men before but I think the real thing here is I've seen it happen with friends or just people in general where the relationship goes wrong. So I have their flaws in my head to prevent that from happening to me.

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