Is it normal i want to hurt people?

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I don't really know how to start this off, but I have never told anyone about this. I don't have anyone I trust with this and I dont know how to tell someone.

Well, I pretend to feel sorry for people or that I care or trust them. When in reality, I don't really care and wouldn't if they died or not. I only care about them if they're listening to my own problems.

I desire to hurt and kill people. Especially if they've upset or have hurt me. Once, my brother hit me with a cup towards my genital area and I was going to grab a knife to kill him. I was blinded by rage, but it was also for him manipulating me for doing sexual things with him and actually injuring my genital area.

I am very paranoid about everyone. I'm afraid that they might want to violate me, kidnap me, etc. Its probably because I was molested as a child, but I think I'm over that. But, I wish someone would try to do something bad to me so I can kill them. I used to carry screw drivers, scissors and a knife before.
I'm also paranoid of my brother watching/ violating me when I sleep or watching me when I shower by putting in cameras or something. I want to kill him for a peace of mind too.

Is this normal? I know its probably not, but I just want this off my chest. Im just crazy.

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  • Ellenna
    7 years ago

    Normal if you've been sexually abused and I don't believe you're at all over it and by the sound of it, still in a dangerous situation with your brother with a lot of anger about what's happened to you.

    This isn't going to change until you get up the courage to talk to someone about what's happened to you. If you can't talk to your parents about it then initially, anonymously calling a sexual assault crisis line would be a good move - it may take you a while for you to open up about the abuse and get the appropriate therapy, but I can assure it will be worth it. The alternative is to go on as you are and you don't want that, do you?

    I'm very sorry this has happened to you and I wish you all the best.

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    • LittleLeafff
      7 years ago

      Thank you... Hopefully I can, but I'm scared of what people will think when I tell them.

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      • Ellenna
        7 years ago

        Believe me, people on anonymous crisis lines will have heard everything and they won't judge you It's totally normal for you to be apprehensive about disclosing what's happened to you, so just take it slowly - you don't have to tell everything to the first person you speak to, just tell a little bit and check out the response to see if you feel safe enough to take it further.

        Good luck!

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  • DudeDownDaRoad
    7 years ago

    Woah just when you click a topic on this site and you think its gunna be straight forward it always goes to sexual abuse. Eveytime

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      What's that supposed to mean?

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  • Neverask4Dis
    7 years ago

    You've just described me. I've been sexual abused and raped and always have erges to kill and hurt others. I always find the feeling fascinating. Yet everyone just thinks i'm a psychopath and is scared of me. I just want to bathe in there blood..

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    • LittleLeafff
      7 years ago

      I have read somewhere that it is because we want to be the ones to hurt/dominate people instead of them doing it to us.

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  • SirChazwick
    7 years ago

    You know this is not normal. Seek support or help.

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  • kasaikitsune12
    7 years ago

    well im a hired assassin and i love to kill people!

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    • Pestilence495
      7 years ago

      really? that fucked up i'll kill others my own self.

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      • kasaikitsune12
        7 years ago

        well im paid to kill people

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  • DyroneIII
    7 years ago

    Who the fuck voted that this is normal? It's not normal dude, please seek mental help like Ellenna said.

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