Is it normal i want to be alone to avoid being hurt?

you know I understand where your coming from, but the pain of losing someone does subside as time passes, so is it really worth living a boring life with no friends or family and being alone for all of your years when you could enjoy them with close people and have to go through a couple years of sadness after a loss? I guess its whats most important to you, but I suspect you would be happier with people to share your life.

Its almost like saying, should I never get a job because I am scared of getting fired, it just doesn't weigh out for me.\

Good Luck with your choice

Same

You're insane. Death is part of life. Learn to deal with it. The fact that you would leave your family for fear of them dying is illogical, and somewhat selfish.

I'd recommend some therapy about this.

u need a shrink

yeah

Sorry for all that, guess i'm still emotional about my loss =/

Hmmm, I recently had a similar problem. My thoughts were "ditch them before they leave" "without friends, there's no loss to be made". I've just lost all my friends... I regret it. Don't deliberately make friends, but don't push them away, unless they aren't good friends for you. I'm also a loner by nature, but each time you push everyone away, what truly hurts isn't the loss, it's the lack. What i'm trying to say is, when you loose someone there's a gap there, and the gap hurts, not the loss as much.
Sure, if you never fill the gap, your heart will shrink around it, an it will be a smaller duller pain, but trust me, that isn't good. It's nearly impossible to reverse, and that pain will occasionally spike up, almost killing you, tearing you to shreds.
It's worth trying to keep people close. The loss hurts, but so does the lacking.
As for leaving your husband, you'll be hurt when he dies, no matter if you're together or not. Enjoy the together, deal with the loss, friends soften the blow of pain, and doing so brings you closer. And smile more! It's good for you! =)
Remember this, it's something my friend once told me, and it's always stuck in my mind: "No-one want to be alone. I don't care what anyone says."

I don't think it's horrible at all. I don't really like the ones I made anyway. I only get a call when they know I have money. Then they ask to hang out and I end up paying for everyone. I spend 300 to 400 dollars each weekend for them to watch movies, go to dinner, and whatever else they want. I've never gotten a single birthday gift or card or any kind of appreciation. No, I don't feel bad. I'm too nice to people. If they die, I know it's going to hurt even if they treat me bad. So I want to leave now and keep my mind off of it.

@lifeiscrazy,
don't you think it's horrible to have driven your friends away,and what if this happens over and over again,how abnormal and rejected one must feel..

You should talk to a psychologist. Even if it's just a few visits it's definately worth it.

But when u lose them it hurts because they meant so much right? Well it's better to have cared and known that they care too rather than knowing u didn't spend time with then while u could. If love them go see them. Otherwise when u don't have that chance u will miss it

Bonding isn't the problem. Letting go is the hardest thing. It's even worse that when someone dies, you never get them back. I'd rather deal with being alone.

It's normal to be afraid of those things but if you constantly push ppl away in fear of losing them your going to live a miserable life. Maybe talk to a therapist or something who can help you with your bonding a little better.