Is it normal i want cock all the time?

I am a married man in my fifties and love cock and cum. I can't get enough of it. I like pussy and every form of the female body. I am attracted to women even ugly ones at times I can see something in them that makes me want to fuck them. But I am not attracted to men in the same way, only their cocks and balls. I don't look at men and don;t want to go out with men. I suck cock as often as I can and I always swallow. I like to get fucked too and take cum up my ass. It's just so hot. I get hard just thinking about it. I love rubbing cocks and balls around my face to worship them. I am so dedicated to cock. I am working over seas at the moment in a hot country and the men here are so fucking hot. Single or married men here all love men here but are more interested in fucking you. Which is just fine by me. I go to the park even in daytime and I can have 3,4,5,6 men before it gets dark. I went there las week in the evening at dark.I started sucking my first cock and all the other men came to watch. We were getting pushed over in all their excitement. I came up from my knees but was still bent over sucking when my shorts were pulled down and my ass was being fingered. Next I was having my first cock fucking me. The others were all waiting for their turn. When one had come in my mouth and was finished hie was replaced my someone else. After the first one finished fucking me and left the next one took his place. And its like this all the time. Am I out of control for cock? The men are just hot and know what I and they want. This is cock heaven. I've turned in to a whore for cock and cum. I want to go there dressed as a slut cos that's how I feel now and I am enjoying it.I want cock and cum all the time, is it normal?