Is it normal i've that i've been depressed since i can remember ?

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I'm 21 have what people from the outside looking in would call a normal life. live with family have an okay job. But ever since I can remember I've been depressed because I was abused by a parent as a child an now I suffer from D.I.D. (dissociative identity disorder) I would love my life if I didn't have to deal with things that happend to me as a child like also being also being raped. it effects me on a daily basis it's so hard to cope sometimes I feel I could just end it all now and so hard to keep boyfriends and close friends because they no something's wrong but they never no what and I can't tell them. Sometimes I just start crying an have to blame it on something else because no one will understand or just lock my self away in my room for days. I break down regularly and I find it hard to stay in the same job because it's hard to deal with life as it is with out the daily flash backs and other syptoms that go with D.I.D. and last month i lost my baby to top it all. Is it normal I just wanna die but then keep talking my self out of thinking like that...... Never ending cycle

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  • Gamble
    12 years ago

    Thank you so much for just replying I know things like this can be hard for people to get there head round so thanks for just replying
    There are so many symptoms like
    Current memory loss of everyday events
    Depersonalization
    Depression
    Derealization
    Disruption of identity characterized by two or more distinct personality states
    Distortion or loss of subjective time
    Flashbacks of abuse/trauma
    Frequent panic and anxiety attacks
    Identity confusion
    Mood swings
    Multiple mannerisms, attitudes and beliefs
    Paranoia
    Pseudoseizures or other conversion symptoms
    Psychotic-like symptoms such as hearing voices and other Schneiderian first-rank symptoms
    Self-alteration (feeling as if one's body belongs to someone else)
    Somatic symptoms that vary across identities
    Sudden anger without a justified cause
    Spontaneous trance states
    Suicidal and para-suicidal behaviors (such as self injury)
    Unexplainable phobias

    Some days I deal with it better than others but im just at the point were I think I need serious help. D.I.D. Is more know by doctors in America I have tried to see a psychologist before but it seems to big for them to handle wich is no surprise.

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  • Who_Fan4Life
    12 years ago

    I see that no one has commented on this yet, so I'd figure I'd lend a hand and try and help the best I can. Mental illness is no joke. I have some problems too. I have a lot of anxiety and a past that I'd rather not discuss.

    Anyways, what are your symptoms of D.I.D? And, have you ever talked to or seen a psychologist?

    Hope all works out for you.

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