Is it normal i've developed a pain fetish?

Well 2 years ago I was raped on holiday,since then I got abused by an older man for a long time, he use to hurt me a lot and perform sexual acts on me with permission and I couldn't stop him. Now with my current boyfriend I have developed a pain fetish, I love being spanked and bit til I bleed and worryingly I've craved being cut with a blade. I'm scared, is this normal?

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Based on 5 votes (3 yes)
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  • peterr

    You're an asshole.

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  • Angel_in_a_Glass_Dress

    remember, there's a difference between real rape and consensual BDSM.

    with BDSM you know your partner will stop when you want him or her to. so you can experience the pain and pleasure... without the fear.

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  • Avant-Garde

    Masochism. It's normal, but be safe with it.

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  • Acerbic

    Agreed with Avant-Garde. (I love your nickname, by the way.)

    Firstly, I'm very sorry to hear of your abuse- it's always very traumatizing and can a lot out of a person. Have you talked to anyone about it? Sometimes talking to a conselor or a trusted friend can help you deal with the cascade of emotions that come with trauma.
    Masochism and Sadism are actually fairly common and may or may not have anything to do with your past, but as long as you and your partner have trust and boundaries set up, it's entirely normal.

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