Is it normal i use logical operators on people?

Is it normal I use logical operators on unsuspecting innocent bystanders?

I confess, it is not uncommon for me to turn my gaze towards random people in an attempt to analyze them and retrieve a truth table by performing operations such as NOT, NAND and XNOR on them. Sometimes I go wild and even use converse implication.

I have this insatiable urge to retrieve as many truth tables as possible in as little time as I can, yet I ache, oh believe me I do for those who happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, for I know how obscene my actions are.

I feel myself withering from the inside each time I remove a piece of happiness - once a part of the victim, a piece which he so rightfully owned, a piece that will never return to place. Those who deserved better are now bereft of their innocence, all because of me.

The guilt is unbearable, as all I am left with is to witness how the ones I have hurt are now sunken too deep in apathy to realize how lifeless they've become.

I am sick and tired of this.

I am tired of removing people's once lively souls only to fill the void with nothing but eternal abyss.

I just can't take it anymore. And I cry.