Is it normal i try to kiss my friend even know he is not gay?

Hi, I don't know how to talk about it ,so I need some advices. Here is the thing, I always assumed that I might be gay, but I never been kissed before, so I had a thought in my mind, I called my friend who was my classmate in high school.
Now,we are 25. We barely talked to each other,maybe for couple of years, so l contacted him last week, and talked to him I want to meet him , he said yes. I want to kiss him not in the sexaul way or in love.It's just a kiss without feeling , simple and fast. I don't want to kiss some random guys , I just Barely know him, but he is my friend. One reason I choose him , because he is Christian. I won't fall in love with him , so does he. But he doesn't know I want to do that to him. He seems pretty nice, if I ask him, he probably say yes. I know it sounds cruel, I'm using him, but hey he can say no , right? And it not a big deal for him , he helps me. I will appreciate that , I never kiss someone before, If I can kiss a guy, after that I maybe can have a relationship , because I'm too shy to meet someone else. This kiss means a lot to me , it could give me courage to find love. Sorry for that long story.