Is it normal i trust white guys too much

I don't think it's a good idea to be so trusting of anyone.

And while I'm no psychologist, I think that the theory regarding your past makes perfect sense.

Being attracted to someone who is your physical opposite is totally normal.

Being unattracted to someone who is the same race as you are is a bit unusual. But add in your circumstances, and boom - 100% normal.

So sorry you had to go through that, but you seem to have a good idea of why it might be, which is a good beginning to healing. If you can be friends with African-American males (which would be a good idea if you haven't done so already) and getting to know more normal representations of African-American men/men in general than your father, then I wouldn't worry about the being attracted to Caucasian men more part.

However, the trusting too soon is not a good thing and not normal. Realize the next step, that just because they're "nice" or "white"/reminds you of those who helped you when you were vulnerable and who physically did not resemble your father so you physically and subconsciously identified with them, is very dangerous. Now that you're older and an adult or close enough to be at this level of self-awareness, more men and others will be after you with ulterior motives, and won't all be so nice. First of all, they seem nice because of your past, and because you are not used to "normal" treatment. These men were, and are acting "normal". Anything other than abusive may seem abnormal to you because of your past, and that could be subconscious too.

Also, since you have this positive past experience with Caucasian men, you are probably much more open and friendly with them, therefore making them naturally more positively responsive to you. But when you go too far with your sharing and opening your boundaries too fast, you risk getting hurt, no matter who you are allowing yourself to be vulnerable to.

Now that you've survived that past, protect yourself from being hurt by taking that strength and putting it into yourself. You'll have a much better chance for successful relationships, no matter what kind (friendships, school, work, or romantic). Consult a psychologist or therapist, a survivor group, or some kind of further exploration with an expert about how you can start to do this.

Best of luck to you.

" He's pretty fly for a white guy. "

LOL.

" I say this though because I'm a black female and I automatically put so much trust in white males, including strangers. "

Stop doing that. It's stupid. So many guys/people in this world are dishonest trash and trust should be something earned not blindly given. That's how you'll get burned, used and taken advantage of.

" I tend to tell them some of my darkest thoughts and secrets even after us just meeting. "
Not a good quality to have if your secrets are important to keep secret. It also comes off as a bit weird for a girl to do that. You shouldn't unload your deepest secrets on someone you just met or hardly know. That's not normal and it probably freaks some people out. There is such a thing as TMI - Too much information.

"I'm usually nowhere near as nice to black males and I swear its unintentional. I don't have any attraction to literally any black male and I don't open up to them."

Nothing wrong with having a preference and it sounds like because you've mostly been around white guys they are your preference. Totally normal.

"The only theory I have dates back to my childhood. My mom had a couple of white male friends who supported her throughout her abusive marriage. They were so kind to me. They would usually take me places, get me literally anything I wanted to eat, get me toys, and shower me in attention. I looked up to these men and felt very safe around them. "

Yup, makes perfect sense. All you've known from Mr White is good so naturally you feel good around them.

"The only black man in my life at the time was my aggressive, abusive father. He didn't physically hurt me, though my mom had to protect me a few times when he would go crazy and not care what he hit. He would purposely beat my mom almost to death. He didn't take care of me at all. The days when I was left with him I would starve because he wouldn't feed me. I only have fragmented memories of him being violent."

I'm sorry you've experienced that. Obviously not all black males are that way but I don't blame you for having negative feelings for them.

Not to be racist but I have noticed that black people are often much more hostile and have loose control over their emotions. Black girls and black guys tend to be more physically aggressive than other races.

" think this may have affected me psychologically to where I trust white males probably more than I should."

Yup. I think so but you sound like a smart cookie and you're aware of this so I wouldn't worry about it too much. Just stop granting strangers and people you don't really know too well such trust because you are setting yourself up to be let down one day. Meaning he could rape you, cheat on you, beat you, give you STDs, etc.

Plenty of white boys do bad things too.

You know, there have been a lot of controversial topics involving black and white people lately. This will never end of course but I would like to see more pride in one's race despite the odds and pressures against it.

Your past makes perfect sense in how you judge people. I think that is unfair to literally every other black person though. Considering this is the internet, unless some divine intervention happens, we'll never meet. But lets say we did and I turned out to be a very nice guy to you of the likes of which is uncommon in most males period, which I am. Would I feel appreciated if I was not even trusted with your thoughts simply because your dad was not a kind man? I don't believe punishing all black males with a lack of trust and attraction from you is the right thing to do because you may miss out on someone who truly cares and means no harm. You can't allow one man's past aggression control your whole outlook on males as he was just one male and doesn't represent the thoughts of every black male.

In closing, you know how hard it is for black people to not get judged on sight sometimes. Don't make it hard for us to even mate with our own due to the same thing or an unfortunate past.

Nice white dude here with a great cock!

i'm not going to vote here. look, i understand that you trust white guys more because of your father and that's completely normal. but i'm gonna agree with "True". Don't be so trusting. We, white people, are not angels either. We are just normal people like you. Bad people exist in every ethnicity so be careful for what you say to anyone :)

Shouldn't people put the least trust in white males ...
You being a black girl just makes this a lot funnier for me ..

I'm a white male but don't trust me.

Haha "darkest thoughts" lol. But for serious I'm not a racist. The devil is a white male, done seen him.