Is it normal i stalk/obsess over my crush?

I've had a crush on this girl for a very long time. We're very close and best friends and we've known each other for years. (I'm a girl also) She has a girlfriend of about 3 months.

I think I've come to terms that it probably will never work between us, but I can't stop obsessing over her. Most of the time when I think about her, I cry uncontrollably and cut myself.

When I'm not talking to her, I follow her wherever and write down in a little notebook everything she does, even little things like when she brushes a hair back or sneezes. I keep info on what hours all her classes are, and what her plans are on weekends.

I've recently bought a phone to take pictures of her (a cheap like $40 TracPhone with a camera on it, I have an iPod that only has an inside facing camera) when she's not looking.

In the classes we share, when she's not paying attention I steal small things of hers like a spare eraser or pencil and I keep it in my bag.

I think about killing her girlfriend a lot, I get so angry and upset when I think about them being together. Or occasionally I think about killing my crush so her girlfriend can't have her.

Is this activity normal?

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11% Normal
Based on 45 votes (5 yes)
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Comments ( 4 )
  • RoseIsabella

    Yuck! You sound like a major league creep. You need to get professional help.

    If I found out someone felt like that about me, was doing and thinking what you are I would probably cut all ties.

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  • SkullsNRoses

    This stopped being normal at line 6... you are far, far, far, too obsessed.

    It looks like this girl has become your entire life and you need to find other things to fill your time with than trailing after her.

    Also doesn't she notice that you just happen to turn up everywhere she goes and constantly photograph her for no reason?

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  • Ellenna

    You are travelling down a VERY dangerous road, both for yourself and this person you say you love.

    RoseIsabella is totally correct, you need professional help before this goes on any longer.

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  • Thewomanizer

    Are u serious!? Please tell me this a dam good sick joke!!

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