Is it normal i should be turned on by the holocaust?

I cannot be the only one who gets turned on by the Holocaust and all the mayhem. I am always turned on by wearing my SS uniform. Ordering the scum into the gas chambers. Pulling my gasmask on. Ordering in or dropping the Zyklon B into the gas chamber. Then waiting for the screams and cries and the glorious sound of asphyxiating as the gas goes to work. Knowing they are struggling and dying while I wear my smart black SS uniform really gets me very sexually aroused! All I can think about as I hear the screams is More Gas!! And if they should manage to escape firing machine guns at them. Pulling the trigger and not stop firing until they are dead!!