Is it normal i said these wrong things to this girl?
Its an is it normal about a girl, a shocker right? I think not.
But I could do with some clarification here if that's ok.
Basically lately I've been going through these mental and emotional struggles, but I wont talk about that, all that's needed to be known is it makes it hard for me to communicate with people and actually care for the world.
Anyway on to the proper subject.
Not so simply put, I've been talking to this girl for a little while now, shes Latina, I'm British, there's not a big language barrier cos she studies English luckily enough. Now I'm sadly still a virgin I've been waiting for the right girl, well all the ones around where I live are all the frigging same and it irritates me, all two faced, hair, nails, make-up, slutty, perhaps slightly STD ridden, spoilt, penis loving girls, sounds great right? Easy prey?! No their constant shite would make you want to count your blessings you don't have to live with them. This isn't even stereotyping seriously, they are all basically like girls from Geordie Shore! Get a six-pack (not a six pack of beers) and you can basically have them all. Oh you have to wear skinny jeans alot and smoke sometimes too that helps!
This girl is different, I've told her I'm a virgin, she's cool with it, she said she wishes she could be the girl that I lose my virginity to, great! She's not been sexual in anyway, she plays it safe and shes a good girl, pretty hot too!
Bad news is she told me she loved me, and I for the first time actually had strong feelings for a girl, or anyone in fact, I'm lacking empathy quite a bit, now what she said, hit home. She said is there anything we can do about it? I said yeah, we can go out or have sex/make love, silly right? I'm terrible in these situations so obviously I'm clueless, people always say in that stupid little voice, "When a man loves a woman they have sex to express their feelings" or something stupid, so obviously I took that literally (also whats that song where that bloke goes "WHEN A MAAAN LOVES A WOMAAAN!" I don't know the rest, but that comes to mind, its a sweet song!) she clearly didn't take the sex thing too well and the conversation hasn't been the same since! She even got pretty mad at me which was irritating, I did tell her when she said "You're perfect for me!" I replied "Hey don't say that just yet I can still fuck up!" That or she could be "yanking my chain" the whole time and is some sort of evil witch who torments people cos she puts off meeting sometimes, maybe i should phone her first? I dunno :/
Did I say the wrong thing, was I too hasty with sex? my womanizer of a manager seems to say you should ask them that after about 3 days worth of chit chat not taking drunkeness into account, if you've spoken enough, or their slutty enough it does the job sometimes.
Coming from a guy who basically mentors me with women, tells me to be a player, to just use them and bin them if they're not having it, and he basically walks by women and says "wanna have sex?" I shit you not, 3/5 times they say "yeah sure"...dafuq? I'm still pretty flabbergasted by it to this day, of how many women he gets, and he calls me his protegé? Fair enough I can do it if I want to, but for good girls his love advice really does suck big balls. Besides, I want to actually have a relationship before I go rambo and dine, shag and dash every pretty decent looking girl I see. I'm far from a protegé.
Advice would be much appreciated!
Cheers
p.s apparently I'm quite a handsome lad too, with character, apparently? hope that helps?
sorry for the essay guys!
Is this shit normal?!!?!?!?!?
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Your young, love apprentice, Skitzo1