Is it normal i never get asked on dates ?
I have been asked and I have been on dates. But I really struggle with people.. and I'm shy and reserved and I tend to avoid people.... because well I don't know why I get anxious..
I'm trying my best to overcome this.. and I am trying to put myself out there more. I'm on a dating website but I'm either not attracted to them or they're a bit weird like the bad weird or we get talking then it fizzled out.
My job doesn't allow me to meet new people but there is someone who comes to fix our machines he's been coming for a few years now but sometimes he'll only come every 6 months or a year not often but sometimes it can be often itdepends how much it breaks down..
The past few times I have felt something even though I've barely spoken to him. The past few times I have made an effort to speak even though it is hard. 'Hi are you alright' I even cracked a joke one time. He came yesterday again and I was watching him from a far then my dad asked me to go and pay him.... well my anxiety hit the roof but I acted cool. I acted like I didn't fancy him which often rubs off as me being cold...
We had a chit chat he did most of the talking I agreed or asked a little question back. I could've said more now and I'm kicking myself.
I don't think I have any chance with him. He's the complete opposite of me and surely he would've asked for my number by now if he was interested. I'm dying for the machine to break again so I can try and show more of myself.
But I don't want him to know I fancy him, because I'd be too scared to go with him.
I searched him on Facebook. He's friends with my cousin on there because he works for us too, but they've probably seen each other at the pub too...
Anyway this feeling may be because I struggle to talk to people but when I actually do it I'm so proud of myself and my confidence goes sky high. But I do feel attracted to him too.
But if I add him on Facebook he'll probably get the hint I like him.
Or maybe I should leave it a week or two .
Or maybe I should stop being an idiot.