Is it normal i'm confused

Okay I'm gay and I'm in love with my best friend since 7th grade. I should start the begging when we first met. I got transfer'd to a new school in 7th grade because the school I was in during 6th grade was shut down and that was hard on me. My friends and I got separated from each. Basically I out of ALL 12 of the people I hung out with went to a middle school none of them got in and they all got stuck with each other and forgot about me. So first day was beyond awkward. Everyone knew each other and were all friends and I was sitting in the back in each period watching all the other kids talk with each other having a great time, wondering how my old friends were doing. Then 6th period came along. Since I was new at the school I got lost and showed up late to class, typical. All the seats in the back were taken and there was no place for me hide my electroinc music listening, tech-savvy, emo haired self. So I had to sit in the front of the class. I could hear the other's whispering about me. "Who's that kid ?" "Urgh you see what he's wearing ?" "What a faggot this nigga is." I just put my head phones on to zone out everything they where saying. The class begun and wouldn't you know we had to do partner work ! Of course everyone got with their best friend's and talked about their awsome summer vacation. I just stared at my desk on the verge of tears, then a tap on my shoulder. One of the popular, football playing jocks came up to me and asked to work with me. I said "Are you sure ? I don't want to like anyone talking about you." He said "Nah it's cool." I thought he was cute but no one I could ever get. We started talking and as the weeks passed by we became best friends. During Christmas vacation I came out to him and he took it really well, almost like he was happy that I was gay. Around March he told me "You know if I was gay I would go out with you." and that excited me. In 9th grade he started acting "weird". He's my best friend and I tell him everything and I told him what I like in guys and he started acting and trying to look like the types of guys I would look for. He went to the gym alot to build muscle and one day I decided to ask him "Why are you working out so much ?" "Who are you trying to impress with building up ?" and he said "You, I kinda got a crush on you." but then he said just kidding. Yea, right. The more we hung out, the hotter he became to me. I loved his juicy lips, his sexy tan, his big biceps, and ripped abs and armor plated chest god he was SEXY ! Then in 10th grade he started getting more romantic like and aggressive. He held my hands, hug'd me for long periods of times, said I love you, baby to me 10x a day. He got jealous when ever I hung out with other people, when I didn't pay attention to him or when I hug'd other guys. He would yell at me like I was his child when I did those things, he'd push me up against a wall get in my face ( kissing distance ) and whispered slowly why he loves me and why I don't love him back even though I worship him like a god. We're in 12th grade now and now he does like bets that the loser has to do something like give the winner a blow job or hand job, or the loser does what ever the winner wants him to do and guess who always loses ? Me.
What do I do ? Does he like me ? Should I try something ? I'm really confused