Is it normal i'm an "emotionally needy" person?
I looked it up but I couldn't find a word for it; what I mean by emotionally needy is that I'm the kind of person who needs a lot of emotional support and people to communicate with.
Short version: I could hardly talk to my family about many sad emotional matters and got little emotional support. Now I'm living by myself working full time and when I get home I go straight online to socialize. Though the people I had surrounded myself with were those who always wanted support themselves and so I often just go alone somewhere and cry pathetically. Cry because of this support I crave so much.
Long:
Ever since I can remember, I'd always feel very alone as a child. My mother, who has autistic spectrum disorder, was always self absorbed and could not empathize/understand how I felt at all. E.g. I fell into a depression in secondary school and she never noticed until my father told her.
My brother had aspergers, while he was better than my mother with communication there were times when I really needed a shoulder to cry on and he just wasn't able to do that without running away.
(I don't blame either of them, they can't help what they have and I am a pain with my emotional episodes)
Luckily though, my father was a psychiatrist and I could talk to him. Though... He's the opposite of me, he's very self sufficient (doesn't need others to emotionally support him) so I always felt bad talking to him because I knew I was just causing him trouble and I would never be able to be there this way for him.
I often went alone somewhere and just cried whilst trying to find comfort and support from my bed blankets (very pathetic I know, this had been going on all the way through my teen years as well).
Full question:
Basically what I'm asking is, is it normal to always crave this emotional support and not be self sufficient by being able to cope with my emotional feelings myself without pouring them out to others?