Is it normal i'm all over the place?

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Sometimes I feel like I'm stupid, but not stupid enough. There are many risky, dangerous, life-threatening things that I always comprehend doing. But my brain always throws the consequences out in my head, and leases me think ahead to know they would ruin my life if I were to actually do them.

Sometimes, I get so angry and frustrated and jealous and lonely that I just want to go on Craigslist and say hey, "Anyone up for some BDSM? Do with me what you will". But I know that unfortunately the life isn't filled with rainbows and cupcakes and I stay realistic. I don't know if I'm smart or just a coward, but I've also always thought of doing "inappropriate" things online. But I always tell myself that that would not be good for me in the future.

Well, what do you think? Am I self-controlled and should I stay this way? Maybe I watch too many movies and read too many books and my imagination dominates my life WAAAAAY too much, and I should probably throw those fantasies of reenacting "Lolita" out of my head.

I mean, I've never done anything bad like that though I admit ONCE, I took inappropriate pictures of myself and contemplated putting them online. But I didn't. They were on my gaming system and I deleted them just in case. I made the right choice, right? I feel like I did. But I worry about myself and how weak I am.

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  • flohr92
    11 years ago

    Don't do such things. I've been there, done that, and it SUCKS. if you ever show any kind of slutty behaviour, if ANYONE ever finds out it'll haunt you for YEARS... and you'll be known as a slut even if it's just some innocent sexy pics. guys will make fun of you and girls will hate you. Personally I think it's ok to act wild and free as long as it doesn't put your life at risk or ruins your reputation in your own crowd. Even if you don't care what other people think, trust me, it will make you feel like shit at some point because people are close-minded. If you can't handle these impulses just make sure no one will find out and be careful

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      Well I haven't a actually done any of these. Just contemplated it. And thanks. What did you mean by "been there, done that"?

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      • flohr92
        11 years ago

        Well I've done drugs while taking pictures of me and friends with just my bra, have done stuff with guys when I was younger that they blew totally out of propotion.. Just stupid shit like that. Don't give people a reason to talk about you! I was 15 years old back then and now at the age of 20 I'm still known as "that little cocaine whore" (not the case considering I'm still a virgin and don't do any drugs other than occasional pot smoking)

        You don't have to be a typical boring good girl but if you have these thoughts and urges avoid drinking too much, and don't do drugs haha

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    Just keep doing what you are doing and you should be find.

    Those that give into those impulses are weak you do not appear to be one of them.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    you are strong not weak , it shows in yr post

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