Is it normal i like to hurt women that like me? or that i like?
This is for sincere readers - someone whos not scanning isitnormal for posts to BASH the OP. I GIVES NO FCKS for BASH comments. I'm asking for your HELP you know.... =)
Anyways "fuck you loser"......yeah I know....
I was cheated on in the past. Felt REALLY shit afterwards because I was such a simp "NICE" guy at the time AND I knewww this bitch was NOT trustworthy and I STILLL made her my gf.anyway. Lost alot of self confidence ( and sexual confidence she had made me feel while with her)
I was gonna downplay this fist time I typed this out - but yes I was bitter about it. I honestly still am.
I was soo hurt by this I sorta went on a vengeance journey of just sleeping around with girls at house parties and clubbing and acting like as BIG of a PRICK/DOUCHE to women I can.
Frm there I just decided all women were sluts and cheaters. And if I get cheated on again I will have cheated first.
Sooo...
I cheated on all my girlfriends I had since then. Deliberately.
And some found out and I wanted them to all feel really bad/like I don't give a shit. And like they would lose an ammaaazzziinnngggggg guy if they left me,even though looking back-Once a girl go home w/ me while her "friend" was calling her, when she left I checked her facebook and saw she had a boyfriend with te same name as the guy who was calling her. that really fucked my head up for weeks.
I fuck with girls who show interest in me - like I pretend to be REALLLY into them - and then I just go and hookup with other girls in front of them.
Truth is, I'm bitter. Yep. Im bitter I got cheated on by my first HOT gf and I hate that girls are readily soo sexual with guys they like.
I don't think I will ever find a girl who I can marry and settle down w/ because women are soo horny and I trust NO1. She'll prob cheat while I'm at work or something lool.(this is a genuine fear being cheated on while married)
Im saying this not to troll but to ask how can I stop?
Its like I love women in a sexual way.....I think....but I HATE you also.....
Women are amazing but sex and relationships have tainted my WHOLE perception of male-female interaction. HELP. Its got to the point I feel patronized at any women who even ACTS flaky with me and will cut off communication w/ her.
My head is fucked