Is it normal i just want to ride?
All I want to do with my life right now is ride my bike everywhere in the United States and Canada and maybe even mexico.
My only vehicle is a small motorcycle and I have to ride every day no matter the weather, when it's broken down and I can't ride I can't sleep and I'll sit on it in the garage imagining riding it.
I'm planning a ride from TX to CO with my best friend in the next month and I'm pretty sure I won't want to go back to my life in TX, but I'm going to run out of money eventually, fairly quickly actually.
I had like an epiphany on mushrooms a few weekends ago, I was standing next to my bike and thought, "There's a guy sleeping in the White House right now and billions of people give a fuck that he exists, there's a fat kid in North Korea with millions of people breaking their backs just to make him happy, and all I want to do is ride my bike, why is that so much to ask of this world? I don't want to hurt anyone, I just want to feel completely free."
And now I can't stop thinking about it. I'm 20 with no education past highschool , no relationship and no skills, and a shitty job, there are mountains, deserts, forests, swamps, magical places and people to see out there, and I feel like I'm stuck here with nothing to look forward to but clocking in to work and getting wasted on the weekends for the rest of my youth until I find a wife and pop out some kids and grow old. I'm not sure i want to keep living if this is what life is.
I don't know if this makes me a bum or if this is something I'm supposed to do to find myself.