Is it normal i have to be a performing monkey and i sick of it?

Ever since I was little I was a performing monkey for my parents. This includes to my extended family. Unfortunate for me my extended family loves me for me. While my parents only love me so they can say "Look what a cool kid I got".

If I do anything which upsets them or makes them look bad I often get chewed out of it. I often get chewed out for my extended family saying good things about me too. Which as a kid it meant nothing and I could do nothing. If I was going to get a beating for not performing well in front of my aunts and uncles I was going to get that beating. I had to deal with it and accept I deserved that beating.

Yet, it is different now. I am an adult, but I dont know if I should just cut off the rest of my family since I know my mother and father will always try to use that to control me. Should I get rid of all of my family and start over? I know its cruel to my extended family, and I do love them, but I cant be around them without the pressure of putting on a show and I dont want to perform anymore.

I even started overacting around them at one point and I knew it was annoying them. I could not risk not being perfect and them telling my mother I was being antisocial or something though.