Is it normal i have these fetishes

I'm actually a pro life guy but theres this chic I know whos super hot and since ive known her shes had several abortions and she smokes and drugs while pregnant. Now I feel conflicted. I started talking to her and told her that it turns me on how she has abortions without a care in the world. She said it kind of turns her on to and she likes to do it but she doesnt do it much because its unhealthy. I think I've found the one. I wanna get her preggo so she can smoke and drug and have a retard baby. Or she can just abort it 😋. Shes such a slut. I like sluts! 🤔 hmmmm