Is it normal i have absolute hatred towards my mother?
I'm not sure if this will be long but I'll try and make it short. Sometimes I like my mom, sometimes I have so much hate towards her it hurts so bad. The precentage of hate to likeness to her is 95 to 5 percent. I think she doesn't like me either. Anytime I ask her for even $3 she says no yet she would give 20s and 50s to people outside like her friends and I feel so neglcted. She never wants to do anything for me at all. She's so lazy. She thinks she's the smartest person ever and she acts rich. Whatever I do or give to her isn't enough. She wanted a pandora bracelet but I don't have a job so I got her a lookalike for 28$. She hated it and said she couldn't belive I'd buy her something so cheap. Forget making her a card for her birthday because she would probably bitch as at me for giving her something worth less than 100$. She boasts to people like she's the donald trump of queens and I hate it. I get amazing grades in school yet she doesn't care at all. Its because of her I've got a temper. She raised me in an enviornment where I was yelled at, cursed at, and beaten a lot. Now most of that have stopped but I hate her because I'm scared when I'm older and have kids ill lose my td I don't want that that. I hate her for what she did to me degrading mw and making me think I'm not good enough for anything. So many nights I've cried myself to sleep because of her and wishing I could just die and leave all of this pain behind because its ovbvious she doesn't love me at all. I don't even know if any of these thoughs are normal.