Is it normal: i hate the fact i'm related to my family?"

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(TRIGGER WARNING) I'll try to make it short, My "family" is verbally abusive to this day, and I've never had a sense of family even as a kid due to being raped by my cousin, everyone knowing about it, and no one doing anything. So my 'parents' cut me off from the little family I had because I was an embarrassment. My mother has a burning rage all the time, and not a day goes by where I'm not yelled at for the pettiest of things. My father, while physically present, doesn't do anything, we rarely talk. He used to be an alcoholic. My half sister left when I was in 5th grade and cut everyone off as she is damaged by these fools as well. There is a LOT more I'm leaving out, but really who wants to read that.
Point being, I hate it. I hate the fact that I am related to them. I hate it to the point where I cut and day dream that I can bleed out everything related to them (as scientifically wrong as that is.) I have many mental illnesses from them, and I swear I hate myself more than anything.
I talk too much.
Well, this probably wont get replies

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  • Short4Words
    8 years ago

    <a href="http://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/cutting-and-self-harm.htm" rel="nofollow">http://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/cutti...</a>

    I'm not experienced with this sort of thing but you might find some of the information found above helpful. I really hope you find the help you deserve.

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    • Short4Words
      8 years ago

      Link is still good. Just a little extra work :P

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  • mischieflover
    5 years ago

    perfectly normal. the term 'family' literally has no meaning to me anymore. its just an empty word at this point. i was sexually abused for a decade and these monsters chose to side with my abuser. it gets even more complicated and fucked up the more i get into it but it is waht it is. not all of us are fortunate to come from loving,caring homes, and thus we dont owe these selfish people that call themselves 'family' any loyalty

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    Perhaps the reason they seem to dislike you and shun you is that you are adopted. That could make sense, right. Anyway, since you are 18 (you have to be 18 to post on here) why don't you just leave? It would only make sense to leave if you are that unhappy there.

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    • ammycat
      8 years ago

      I'm 19, and planning to move soon. I just need all the funds. And god I wish that were true, but I found my certificate.

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