Is it normal i had rape fantasies at 9?

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Basically I've had no childhood sexual abuse (that I can 100% remember), but since the age of 6 I knew what sex was. I knew about the possibility of being kidnapped and raped by older men by being bribed. And, I vividly remember that at 8/9 years old I wished that an older man would rape me. Even as a group.
Back then it was just a secret, but now I'm really starting to wonder. I'm only 18 now so it's starting to affect me more everyday as I can't quite understand how/why I thought like that. Why I felt like that.
Is that normal?

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  • [Old Memory]
    7 years ago

    Do you really, truly believe that it's normal or healthy for a grade-schooler to fantasize about being gang-raped by adults? I mean, REALLY??? If so, I don't know what else to tell you.

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    • Pussygroperwithnukes?
      7 years ago

      When I was 10 and looked 9 I fantasized about being gang raped by slutty, slutty female twentysomethings (vaginal sex to be clear, not urethral or anal insertion)

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  • [Old Memory]
    7 years ago

    Stop projecting; you know damned well it's not normal for a 9-YEAR-OLD to have these thoughts.

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  • RoseIsabella
    7 years ago

    Ugh, that sounds nightmarish! I don't remember when I first learned what sex was, because honestly learned a lot from reading health books from the library as a junior high school student, and not from porn or whatever, and yes ,I'm very thankful for how I learned.

    This is just a guess, but it is possible that you were exposed to pornography at a very young age, were either neglected by your own father and or had no male father figure in your life as a child. It's also possible that you may have been molested as a child, and somehow managed to block out the memory from your mind.

    I vaguely remember meeting other children like yourself on rare occasion as a child, and it always gave me the creeps, what you're describing is so disgusting and horrific. I'm sorry if anything terrible happened to you, but what you describe is not only not normal, but straight up abnormal. No offense, but when I met other kids who had these unnatural desires as a child I basically always wanted to get away and stay away from them, because it always gave me a sense of danger like something evil was near.

    Maybe you were a victim of ritualistic abuse?

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    • [Old Memory]
      7 years ago

      Anything that's not normal is abnormal; this is abominable.

      These kids you speak of, what were they like?

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  • [Old Memory]
    7 years ago

    GUH-ROOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSS..........

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  • Tealights
    7 years ago

    Talk to a psychologist.

    In my opinion, you were probably expose to too much information too soon, and may have felt emotionally negected at some point during your childhood.

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    • RoseIsabella
      7 years ago

      Bingo bango!

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  • mrbrownfinger6
    7 years ago

    A lot of my ex gf's have mentioned rape fantasies. Maybe its the being used for pleasure thing, a craving to please.

    Either way, it's a fantasy that has to stay a fantasy or maybe act out as a role play with your bf.

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  • sourgrapes
    7 years ago

    No its not bloody well normal...

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