Is it normal i get scared to lose my boyfriend....

okay well I am going out with this guy for 2 years now and I love him so much but when I see him talking to a girl and t's not me i feel scared I will maybe lose him... somtimes i get mad becuase he has to get off the phone... I get cheat on so much before and it's just not funny it's so sad and i hate cheats so much and when i met my boyfriend i was a smoker and i did whatever i wanted to do i was like that for one year and when we met him i fall in love with him and he told me to stop smoking so i did the next day just like that but what i never get was i stopped like 20 times before and i would go back to smoking the next day and so much people who care about me would tell me stop smoking and i wouldn't and people i love too would tell me and i didn't care what did said... but i guess i want him a lot and i need him in my life so much 10 days later he asked me out i said yes now it's being two years and he is all i have i think about him 24hrs a day and i get mad at him all the time he never get mad at me before he Never yell when im mad he tells me he loves me and i say whatever :( and sometimes i cry becuase i get so mad at him but when i get mad at him it's for nothing im just scared inside at maybe one day one of us will die or he goes for someone a lot better then me... I lost all my friend in school becuase i was in a really bad school and now i have one guy who is there all the time for me does whatever i say tells me he love me like 10000 times a day but i till get scared that i will maybe lose him so what i do when i think of that i get mad and mad and all day mad i can't stop and im losing him becuase i can't stop being mad at him i need help how can i stop being so mean and so mad at the guy i love so much plz help me out :(

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  • chewy

    story is too long too lazy to read it all

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  • bleach_baby

    youll lose him if you keep on like that

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  • lala85

    I know it sounds cliche and like cheap therapy talk but you need to work on yourself girl. YOu really have major self esteem issues. I am not judging you, I am talking from experience. I used to be very insecure when I was younger. I have matured and learned to love myself a whole lot more now. That doesn't mean sometimes we don't get scare to loose the ones we love but not obsess the way you are. At the end of the day I go to bed and know that he would be a fool to loose me. You have to mature to a point you feel secure enough to feel that. Good luck!

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  • Its normal for an insecure girl to be scared for this. Although it can be horribly annoying for your bf. My bff has the Same problem with her own bf, who has been single for a Year be4 they went into a relationship. And trust me when I say he did all he could in that Year to get a gf. So now he finally has one but he left about 15 girls alone that were smoldering from his charms and don't really like the fact that he sort of abandonned them

    Just don't you worry, there's no reason for you to fear to lose your bf :)

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  • rukii

    Just don't yell at him so much he might find it annoying and after tht it cud be a serious issue or it being ur habit!

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  • Kookas

    tl;dr

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