Is it normal i fetishize my bf’s drug problem

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I’ve been with my boyfriend for little over a year, he’s 23 and has a (slight) addiction to opioids. I say slight because he is more of a habitual user than a hardcore abuser. He has held down a good and stable job for 4 years, pays his mortgage, and doesn’t walk around high, but he shoots up every night after getting home from work.

There’s something I find so sexy about him being doped up. The slow breathing, dazed eyes, sunken face, how he drags out his words and talks quietly. And to be honest the bruises really turn me on. The whole idea of him doing something illegal, dangerous, and secretive, is sorta thrilling.

We can fuck for hours when he’s high and he is always so touchy and steamy. I tell him I’d prefer if he didn’t use because I know it’s bad for his health, but he knows I find it sexy. When he’s not using he’s incredibly loving and goofy and outgoing and I love that for a partner, but his “douchebag”, uninterested, cold, doped-up side is just so fucking hot

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  • rayb12
    6 years ago

    mmm just thinking about how he'll look in that casket.

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    • rayb12
      6 years ago

      will that be sexy too?

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      • rayb12
        6 years ago

        For the record I fully understand you finding this hot. But like if you aren't doing everything in your power to turn his life around you are enabling his premature death.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          6 years ago

          It’s not my decision to make what he does, I wish he was healthy, but it’s his choice and I enjoy it as well. I’d never do drugs, but he has his own mind.

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          • rayb12
            6 years ago

            I wanna puke. You enjoying watching this man kill himself makes you no better than these people that these people that feed obese partners until they kill them. You are one of the only people if not the only one that could save him, and not only do you nothing, no, you "enjoy" it. You do not love this man, and don't for a second lie to him or yourself. I wanna cry this is making me so sad. Its one thing to turn a blind eye to maybe a stranger you don't know but when its your boyfriend suffering from chemical addiction and you just see it as "hot". No, you are the type of person that makes people link fetish to abuse. You are not being kinky you are being a monster. He deserves so much better than you. You are not ready to be in a relationship. But lack so much empathy I can't imagine a word of this getting through to you anyways. Don't respond you make me too upset I can't even handle this right now.

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            • S12207
              6 years ago

              I agree with you 100% it's absolutely disgusting. I will say yes he does have a problem especially if he's doing it every night when he gets back from work. See what happens to him when he tries to stop then you will see what this shit is doing to him. He needs to stop now and if you care you will at least pretend for his sake that it doesn't turn you on anymore and yes tell a white lie. He will die eventually if you two keep this shit up and yes, I mean you as well because he needs all the support in the world and if he thinks he's impressing you by killing himself he's not going to stop from the sounds of it.

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            • rayb12
              6 years ago

              Your boyfriend deserves people that nourish and support him and save him from this lethal poison. He deserves you being as far away as possible.

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          • S12207
            6 years ago

            Yes, it is his choice but you obviously have no clue what an addiction is like and why a person does what they do so your encouragement is making it worse. You asked if it was normal so don't cop out with the b's of I don't do drugs, no what you're doing is actually much worse than doing them yourself. At least that would be somewhat understandable like oh she's got a problem too it makes sense. Young sound very insecure and want that bad boy look in your life but trust me you will grow out of it and it won't be cool anymore.

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  • RoseIsabella
    6 years ago

    That's really messed up.

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    • Zorak
      6 years ago

      Maybe she will get in fatal car crash.

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      • chunst
        6 years ago

        Yeah, and maybe you'll be in the other vehicle. What a piece of shit thing to say.

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        • Zorak
          6 years ago

          I'm sorry.

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  • TerriAngel
    6 years ago

    If you're doing a drug every day after work.
    You're an addict.
    You think it's sexy etc.
    I think you are the one with a problem.
    Shooting up?
    I can handle pain but, I don't feel good when a nurse puts a needle in me.
    This guy does it daily...
    That's not normal.
    If ( big if )
    You care about this guy.
    You'll try to get him some help.

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  • SmokeEverything
    6 years ago

    Most of the time people in your situation fetishize it because they think they're going to fix the person and then get to parade them around like some kind of trophy. Seems like you have a situation where both people can be happy. Dope's bad though, there are better drugs.

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  • Pumpurrnickel
    6 years ago

    You don't choose what turns you on. However, you should care more about his health and safety. Just because it's his choice doesn't mean you have no say in the matter. Have you ever even told him to lay off of them?

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  • Huser
    6 years ago

    I can see why someone in a fucked up state can be sexy, but not when they're high on something so dangerous. I hope he is able to get away from the drugs before it takes a serious toll on his life and health. Then maybe you can try other forms of altering his state e.g. role play, bondage...

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