Is it normal i feel this way when i masturbate?

I have a problem when it comes to masturbation. When I masturbate, I feel like it really affects my mentality. I don’t know if I have a disorder or a depression of some kind, although a few friends of mine have suggested that I do. When I masturbate, though, it takes me a long time before I can get horny again, and this is only after doing it once! I can only do it once a day and when I masturbate I start to feel really bad mentally. When I was in school, I would masturbate every single day for two weeks and I couldn’t help myself but keep doing it. But it made me feel sick and I felt like I wanted to kill myself or something.