Is it normal i feel this way about being accepted by society?

I've been trying to fit in since I can remember but being made fun of, ignored, or just not accepted by everyone else has developed so many thoughts in my mind that now I can't help but think too much of the situation. You know when they say you need to accept yourself before you expect others to accept you? well I thought I did and think still do, but maybe I don't without even knowing it. I think I judge myself before anyone does therefore, I don't feel comfortable sometimes therefore, I make it awkward when it comes to talking to people. It sucks because I see others who I would think are lonelier than I am like slower people or conceited ones but the reasons why they still have a social life of some sort is because they just get by by not judging themselves, they just accept it and move on. Now that I've concluded this, I'm trying to not think about it a lot because when I don't, like in my house or w my bf, I'm a fun person. Thank god for my bf because I thought there would be nobody else who would accept me besides my parents so he gives me hope.