Is it normal i dont mind being a loner?

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im not saying im a loner...its kinda complicated...ugh, where to begin..ok. i grew up in a different culture than most of the people here.i spent half of my life pleasing other people. i wore the lastest fashions, tried to attend every party, every outing, tried to flirt, tried to be the "popular "girl, the "bad" girl. it wasnt until last year i realized i had become totally disgusted with my life and was terribly unhappy. so i moved to a new country, cut off ties with my old "friends", and was ready to start my new life in a new culture. the thing is, since i broke away from my old self i was perfectly happy. im not saying im happy cuz im alone. im saying i finally realized i didnt need other people to keep me happy. i think i wont try so hard to please other people in the future anymore. i think as long as ur a likable person and behave apporiately in public u will have friends, fun, and everything. theres no need to try that hard. and i no longer feel the longing to be constantly around people and to be perfect anymore. im like, if i don't have friends,im fine as long as i know its not my fault. if i do, it will be better but i wont rush myself into anything.friendship,relationship, etc.
my step sister is about to become a teacher and she is having the time of her life.everytime i see her its like some voice is telling me again to please other people, to be perfect,blah blah blah, to go back to the old mental state of mine...
im now waiting for the reply from my uni, my life hasn't started yet.ido feel a little bit anxious, only a little bit,mostly i feel a calmness ive never felt before. i m not too looking forward to it, nor am i dreading it.
i quit my uni in my home country. i was a freshman then.

im sorry if this is too long for you guys and excuse me for those grammar mistakes i havent been here for long.
thx for reading!!

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  • karmasAbich
    12 years ago

    Join the club :)
    Your growing up is all. That's normal and healthy. Your experiencing new things, expanding your knowledge of other cultures and points of view, your doing what you want to do. Everyone needs self reflection. Awesome to hear that things are going good for you away from home. Good luck!!

    P.s your grammar wasn't too bad. ;)

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  • NayasBeauty
    11 years ago

    I was where you are for a awhile. You have to find yourself and a purpose to keep you balanced. Try doing regular charity work and understanding the basic needs and desires of the human spirit and not soon after you will find peace and rest. You will be refreshed and able to pick a path you feel comfortable on. Whether it be with others or alone, either way we are all interconnected!

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Good Luck. The older you get the more you will see that the really real world (not college) really really does suck!

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  • Elevate93
    12 years ago

    you should always learn more about yourself before doing anything and the more you learn the more you will see how things in the world work and go on from there

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  • Samson
    12 years ago

    Do you have runescape?

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  • hemper
    12 years ago

    OMG thank god im not the only one, im in college and it hit me after frosh week at how much of a sociopath i've become, its like i needed to climb to the top of the social order and assert myself, then aftewards and i thought i was the most abnormal person in the university lol

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