Is it normal i dont like texting first?

Ive never texted first. Its just never been a comfort for me. First of all, I feel like im bothering them by saying hey or whatever.Maybe they cant talk in the moment? Maybe they just dont wanna talk to me at all? That leads me to second, i dont take rejection very well and i havent been rejected that much, part of it being because i dnt put myself out there as much so theres no way of getting rejected. Im weak when it comes to it. Unfortunatly, it leads to a problem now in particular. I want to talk to somebody so bad but im waiting for them to text me when i could easily just text them and just say hi but noooo i cant. I feel like theyre not gonna reply and im gonna feel horrible regretting that i took the chance to text first when i could have been laying back til they texted me
knowing they wanna talk to me.