Is it normal i dont feel bad about being molested

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When i was a little kid my first sexual experiences were with my older cousin. He would take me in the closet and show his penis and make me show mine and then when i got a little older he would start grabbing mine and even once he gave me a blowjob. He was about 15 and i think i was 9 or 10 when that occured. It is weird because i do suffer from moderate anxiety and depression but i dont think that has anything to do with it. I mean i never told anyone but a counselor one time and she acted like it was a super huge deal and as if it was the root of my suicidal thoughts and actions. But i really dont think that it is. To me its just something that happened that is kind of fucked up but i dont really blame myself or feel victimized but like should i? Sure i wish that stuff didnt happen bc its weird and disturbing but it doesnt hang over my head. I just wonder if maybe this is a form of repression itself and it actually is hurting me even though i feel like it is not.

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  • Drphillis
    7 years ago

    My dear
    when I was a little girl, my cousin and i would play Dr, Dr and he would examine my pussy and part my lips and insert his finger in me...the I would examine his genitals and pull his foreskin back and squeeze his testicles etc.

    We never went much further than that but i am sure we both enjoyed the little game we played...

    Cousins spend a lot of time together and thus they will experiment on each other, don`t let this hing over your head for the rest of your life rather remember it for what it was and carry on with your life!

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  • 7777777e
    7 years ago

    Well, you're lucky. That kind of thing can have a huge effect on people. I'm glad you don't feel traumatized by the incident.

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  • JamieWoj
    7 years ago

    If your still a teenager, then that's likely the reason you feel depression at times. Adolescent pubescent boys have a lot of emotions going on. I'm a 35yr old female who was molested by my uncle when i was 5-6 years old. I don't even care. It's never realty bothered me because i don't think about it. I get annoyed with people who use these things as an excuse to be losers or get attention. It happened, it sucks and it wasn't right but life goes on and people grow up. I'm glad you don't let it bug you but it's obvious you do still think about it. Just put it behind you and out of ur mind.

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  • cutegalsly
    7 years ago

    I don't know why but it really is disturbing to me.. However im really glad that you don't feel disturbed about it and that hopefully this doesn't affect you in any way in life. Good luck.

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  • Canon12
    7 years ago

    You are lucky that you don't have problems dealing with it. Research indicates that same sex pushed on a child during formative years does make an impression on their sexuality in the future. Do some research on all the boys that were molested by priests in the past 75 years; some were suicidal, bi-sexual, alcoholics, drug users and mentally disturbed.

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  • Mario25
    7 years ago

    It seems you have healed out of it and your councillor didn't understand it. Everyone suffers mild depression sometimes because of different reasons. It don't necessarily mean it have to be because of same event. Don't over think about the past.
    It is actually good that you don't feel hurt because of it anymore. You don't have to.

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