Is it normal i don't want friends?
I don't want friends. I'm kind of a loner in that I do things solitary. I go out to dinner by myself, shopping alone, for walks by myself, etc. while most others go in groups. When I try to talk to people or join a group, they often ignore me, so I feel constantly hated and unimportant to others. A part of me wants to be loved and accepted, but for the most part, I think that they would be better off without me in their lives. I also feel inadequate and inhuman in many ways; most people treat me like I'm an alien or different. They say I have a tendency to express emotions "strangely" and also behave awkwardly. I can't relate to them on many levels and they avoid me. As a result, I've grown into a hermit. When others try to act friendly toward me, I automatically assume it's an act of sympathy, push them away, and fear I appear weak and vulnerable to others. For some odd reason, while being loved and accepted by people does matter, I'm completely content with my own company... I feel like I get by just fine on my own and have lost interest in social relationships. Is it normal to be this friendless and not want to change it?