Is it normal i don't see why i should care about other people?
I just don't get it. Everyone takes it for granted that we're just supposed to want good things to happen to others and to do what we can to make sure other people get the best they can. It doesn't make any sense. There's no reason I should put any effort into doing something that gets a good result for anyone other than me. Other people have always done everything they could to make my life worse, I don't see why I shouldn't return the favor. And even if they didn't ruin everything, doing good for others provides no benefit to me. That's why I don't like politics. They discuss things like welfare and health care in terms of what's best of the people at large. I don't see why that should even be a factor. It's the silly. It's the type of thing that should only seem to make sense to children, not adults. The only reason I should ever do something good for someone is to gain favor or get something back for it later, and most acts of kindness don't receive any such rewards.
Getting into the habit of helping others only makes you susceptible to being taken advantage of or harmed. You might think you're making friends, but most people will only pretend to like you for as long as it suits them. They'll betray you as soon as doing so gets them something better than what you're giving them. By not copying their ways, you're only hurting yourself. The Farmer and the Viper perfectly explains what happens to those who think kindness is something to be given out freely, but it's not a popular tale because it contains an inconvenient truth that society doesn't want to accept. Life doesn't reward you for what good you do, it only uses it as a springboard to amp up the cruelty and perversity of events. So don't give it the chance.
Another delusion is that doing good things for people is, well, good for people. Not only is kindness illogical, it's not even internally consistent. Kind acts don't make life better, they only redistribute the misery. Give food to a homeless person and you're only giving him the energy he'll use to rob a store or mug someone later. At best, you're taking a chance. Save someone's life, they may go on to kill ten people who would be alive if you hadn't done anything. That that's even a possibility prevents helping other from being a completely good thing, because there's so many possibilities that ultimately you're gambling with other people's lives. That means the motives for kindness are false. So why help people? People are the ones who do everything bad in the first place, and helping them only empowers them to do more of it. They won't be inspired to be better people by your kindness, they'll only use you as a stepping stone. They're animals, and the only way to beat them is to use their own methods. How can egalitarians possibly claim that helping people is in any way right? It's people who have committed every atrocity in the world. It's people who are motivated by an ancient children's fairy tale to wipe out entire nations. It was people who raped and murdered my sister, robbing me of the last person I could ever believe had my best interests at heart. A common line of populist and socialist rhetoric is something along the lines of "we are all united, we are all one people" and so on. Okay, fine. You share a personhood with those people. So you won't mind if I hold you to it and hold you responsible for everything that has happened to me and everything that people have done, since that's the type of thinking that follows from your endorsement of united identity. Your idiotic policies are probably what gave half of them the means to do so in the first place. Once you realize that the real world is every man for himself and thinking otherwise is the definition of foolishness, I'll expect compensation for everything that's been done to me by your singular identity of people. The sooner one accepts that a traditional view of morality is completely backwards from how life actually works, the sooner one can start working toward the benefit of the only person who matters and can be trusted: oneself.