Is it normal i don't feel anything?
My grandfather recently died. He spent his last days at my grandmother's house, which is in our local city. I was at vacation then. It's not my first contact with death, i have many dead family members.
During my grandpa's last days, i stayed home. The whole family would go visit, but i stayed home and watched movies. I actually didn't care.
At his funeral, i pretended to be sad and faked tears, because i didn't want others to judge me, or call me heartless. Even when i saw how my mother was hurting, i still didn't care.
is it really normal how indifferent i am?