Is it normal i did this horrible thing to people?

I'm sorry that someone decided to do that to you. It sounds like she really wasted your time and played with your emotions. However, by creating a fake profile, you are contributing to that sort of cycle.

You trusted someone that you've never met. But you can't keep referring back to a relationship you had with a woman that wasn't even real. Take it as the life lesson it was. All you can do is move on and start over. Otherwise, you won't heal.

Catfishing is a unforgivable fraud.
When someone you trust deceives you like that it can have devastating consequences. You haven't been coping with it in a healthy way. Is there any chance you'd be able to get some counselling?

The way you reacted is actually quite normal. I think people are downplaying the trauma you went through. You went through not only a deception but a grieving process as well. You reacted in a way that you felt would help you understand. Becoming the bully rather than staying the victim is a defense mechanism. I'm just glad you realized that becoming a bully doesn't make you any less a victim. It also doesn't bring closure, which is what you're searching for.
The closest you can get to closure is by trying to understand how fucked up her shit was for her to think it was okay to do this, as well as understanding that you will be decieved again but that the worst has already happened and is over now. You can open yourself up with the knowledge that the chance for someone decent is worth digging through the garbage for.

I agree with others you reacted in a normal way and I think the fake persona was your way of coping with the whole situation as sort of a healing/defensive mechanism from the grieving and betrayal you experienced I believe you should soon or in time start earning trust and find a more physical relationship I think I'd the evidence of the girl existing in person would help you trust her more or make sure to meet the girl in person to avoid future disappointment many people use fake profiles to scam there victims so physical evidence is key also alway anticipate a scam learning around the corner as for the hobo in the woods personally if he helps keep doing what your doing until completely healed Good Luck

Lol, this story seems so fake, and you're a weirdo for coming up with it.

Well, you have a good reason for it.

There was someone you loved and when you found out she "died", it made you very emotional.

But you found out it was all a lie. She kinda messed with your feelings...

One of the things I've learned from online dating is that half of those people are lying about something. Some tell small lies, others tell HUGE lies. I'm sorry you got the bad end of the stick, man.
:(
Also, doing to others what she did to you is wrong. All it's going to do is make those people feel the way you did when you found out the truth.

I like webcams bcuz that way u can see who the hell ur dealing with

You can live your life anyway you want. I would say that if it feels right then its normal. I think that it feels wrong for you because you seem to be upset you are deceiving people..so maybe this guy in the woods thing is who you are or maybe its not. If you like the name you have then use it :) that's why we are all named yes? And if you don't like it then change it and use that one. I think you are so afraid of being hurt again but battle scars make us stronger. I think you don't need to be afraid of getting hurt and use this as a life lesson. Be careful with who you trust, but its okay to trust people. And be careful with people online because they aren't always who they say they are. :) I hope this helps!