Is it normal i depress people by accident?
People seem to feel more about things then I do. I have a odd way of looking at things which would make my outlook seem positive. I sometimes speak about how I feel or bad things that happened to me like nothing. Its actually very matter a fact how I do it. Then people suddenly become sad.
I look at them horribly confused as to why they suddenly are upset. I mean I dont care so why would they? It means absolutely nothing in my brain but somehow it does to them. This also discourages me from actually discussing how I feel since when I actually do (I dont often) people tend to react this way.
I tend to not care very much for myself but I usually have a goal or else I see the benefit vs the loss. So any at all costs or heart ache on the way must be worth it but somehow it just depresses people and I wonder "Why does everyone care so much"? People have also gotten angry at me for not caring more. "You were raped why are you not crying"? Oh I dont know its over now no use in being upset about it. Is there just something terribly wrong with me?