Is it normal i cant tell if i like my partner? do i love them?

I am really emotionally stupid. By that I mean I dont often understand my feelings or what they mean. I also have spent my whole life ignoring them since they were not rational. I was also made to always be the one to take care of everyone all the time. So I often had to be the stable one in times of chaos. A few months ago I was dumped by a person who pretended to like me just because she had a bit of an ego.

After which she totally dropped me and went off with someone else. I was shattered. Since then I been randomly flirting with anyone who will since I can. One of those people thought it fit to pursue me and I hooked up with them. Since the relationship I started to mellow out and calm down and I am a lot less paranoid and I have always been extremely so since childhood.

I am much happier with this person and they are determined to stay no matter what I do. They wont leave me no matter what and seem to find everything I do adorable. They also let me explore my absolutely wrong sexual fantasy's with them. No matter what it is they go along with it. I also not even jealous if they flirt with other people or seem to. Even though I know I probably should be but I am that secure right now. So do I really like them or am I with them because they fixed my mental issues?