Is it normal i can't stop binge eating?
I am obsessed with food. Sometimes it gets better (as in I don't binge or should I say super binge) but in the back of my mind I'm always thinking of the next thing I'm going to eat. Thinking about food always stresses me out until I actually get to eat something then I feel better/relieved.
Sometimes, like currently, it gets to the point where I will keep eating even when I'm full and my stomach hurts and I feel sick because I've eaten too much but I can't stop stuffing my face. I eat really fast and sometimes, when I'm really bingeing, I don't even taste what I'm eating I just keep going even if it's painful.
My stomach almost always hurts unless I haven't eaten for awhile and I'm always bloated. I know I've gained some weight and so not only do I feel guilty about that but guilty that I'm (probably) messing up my stomach and I can't control it.
Thinking about it I literally have food in the back of my mind almost all day long every day. Even when I try to eat separate meals at some point during the day the compulsion overtakes me. I don't know how to describe it other than an addiction.
Even if I don't give in I'm constantly fighting with myself every day. Although I'm not always like this. It usually happens for a couple months or so when I'm really depressed, then my depression will change to not caring about anything including eating and so I end up barely eating.