Is it normal i am not more phased by the fact i was raped?

I dont know if this counts, I mean I think it does. I had people force themselves on me before and I just found it incredibly annoying since I was not interested. They done stuff like shove their fingers in me and grope me and force themselves on top of me. I was really annoyed by this but not terribly ruined for life. However I have a very low emotional response and never understood sexual intimacy so I guess that this would have a low response as well. I know I should feel more but I feel the same amount of repulse as when I actually try to be with a person by choice. Its just annoying and pointless. Now, of course I have no disrespect of trauma of others who were and are destroyed mentally. I totally respect that and I often feel horrible for these people.