Is it normal i am exclusively attracted to authoritarian figures?

Is it normal that I'm exclusively attracted to authoritarian figures and have been since the age of 12/13? I'm a female recently turned 18 and yes I became sexually matured/active very young, started masturbating at 11 and lost my virginity at 12. I know that may also be why I'm so confused but I need answers.

It has gotten to the stage where I obsess, I get turned on by teachers, cops, anyone that can take control of me. I have fantasies about anyone in an authoritarian position in my life regardless of whether they're actually attractive to me or not on any other basis. I also have had almost unbearable desires to have sex with a teacher, etc while underage but as I am now 18 I feel like I can never have that chance again and I feel that this dissappoints me a lot more than it should.

The thing is I don't even flirt with them, for fear I'll be looked at weirdly, but it's on my mind all the time and I'll obsess over a specific person for a few weeks/months, fantasizing about them almost as if it's a supercharged crush, then move onto another unattainable sex partner. For instance, I've been in a school where the school faculty is mainly dominated by male staff and I can't help myself but to eye up every one of them and try get them going and get their attention very subtly, and when I say subtly I mean to the point that they and nobody else knows what I'm doing. I'll also wear subtly provocative clothes such as have a small bit of my cleavage showing, a bit of a belly top or real tight jeans if I know I'll be seen and I get a thrill if I catch someone eyeing me up if they shouldn't be, as if I'm a forbidden fruit or something. Don't get me wrong, I know what I'm doing and I don't put my whole self on show.

For a long time I had absolutely no sex drive, I couldn't get turned on unless it was by my own hand, I'd fantasize about being controlled and having forbidden sex etc but I'd lie safe with the knowledge I'd never do anything. It has changed recently, my libido is very much present and I'm almost screaming in my head for sex which I can't have unless I jump on a fucking cop or something, I realise my life is not and can not be like one of those 'barely legal' pornos and it sucks, but lately I'm starting to think a lot more about acting on these fantasies.

I can't stop masturbating and I'm constantly turned on. It's becoming a real problem for me as I haven't been in a relationship (sexual or serious) since 15 as I solely want an older man in authority, I turn down any guy remotely near to my age, even as far as 23 feels too young in regards to both emotional and sexual maturity, even though I myself am only freshly 18. I just don't understand it. It has taken over my sex life and is now seeping into all of my life and controlling things I do.

I also have three other things to add:
Firstly: Can anyone tell me if the whole lack of libido so young normal? This part can just be answered in the comments not voted on, I just want answers to this secondary question.
Secondly: Should also note I have had no prominent father figure in my life before those questions come rolling in, and it just as well could be the reason, but I need to know if this is normal as I'm scared and almost positive that it's a permanent thing.
Thirdly: I'm aware I'm very young but please no condescending comments, I am well capable of a mature discussion and that is what I'm seeking out here. Thank you.