Is it normal i always think about death?
Lately, I've been having fearsome thoughts about death. It started out with myself. I wondered what would happen when I die, if heaven was real or if everything just stopped. Then I started imagining myself dying in situations. Like if I'm taking a walk down my street, I imagine someone kidnapping me or jumping me in the alley. That happened for a week or so, and then the thought switched from being about me, to other people. For example, the other day I was sitting in Petsmart and saw these two cute little dogs. They were absolutely adorable, but I didn't focus on that. I thought about what would happen if one of them died, how would the other one react? Or, if they both died, what affect would that have on the owner? It's frustrating me because I constantly bring my mood down. The most recent thought I had was today (literally, like 30 minutes ago) when my grandmother dropped me off from visiting her. I imagined her getting into a terrible wreck on her way home. I can't find beauty or happiness in anything anymore.