Is it normal for things to just get worse?
I'm 19, and my boyfriend and I have been dating for about 10 months. He's 24.
We had a pregnancy scare. Twice. He told me if I got pregnant I HAD to get rid of it or it would ruin his life and he would hate me forever, or kill himself, or both.
I've been raised Catholic my whole life. If it was there, it wasn't going anywhere. He knew that. Yet he still said those things.
So is it weird that I feel like he doesn't want me? Is it strange that I am offended that he doesn't want me to have his kids? Even though I don't really want kids and honestly wouldn't do it with him if I had a choice?
And this is the least of our problems. I just spent the last 10 months of my life actually believing I was "crazy", "over-emotional", "nuts", and "illogical".
He does things on PURPOSE to make me mad. He says it himself! He slaps me all the time and grabs my ass in public, and calls me slut and whore, even in front of his friends! How embarrassing!
And him and his stupid best friend decided I get "opinion cards". And they print them out and I get one whenever they decide.
I just hate him sometimes! He acts like everything is so slow, like we've been married for 90 years already. He never takes me on dates, never wants to go anywhere, and picks on me all the time.
He makes me feel SO bad for calling him at around 10 every night before bed, to see if he wants to spend the night together, but then if I don't answer my phone or if I say the same things he tells me, like "no i'm going out", he gets AWKWARD. Like not even mad. Just super passive-aggressive, and borderline emotionally abusive. He won't tell me he loves me, he won't look at me, he won't do anything!!!!
But the weirdest thing is like I don't even care. I'm not ever allowed to have anything nice. I already know this, and its okay, but its breaking my heart because he's supposed to want me to have nice things.
I just feel like this whole thing is a joke to him. He totally tricked me too. He used to be soooo nice and sweet. Now he's just mean. Like he used to just play around slap me, lightly, during sex or something like that, but now he does it hard to make me cry on purpose! And like laughs about it. Its not funny. He's like twice my size and I'm sick of having bruises and my boobs constantly hurting.
And like he'll move or something and I'll flinch, and then he yells at me like "GOD why do you always think I'm going to hit you??" Then the second I put my hands down he hits me!!
He made me cry in front of all his friends the other night when we were watching tv, because he made them all gang up and pick on me and it wasn't funny. But instead of him coming into the room and comforting me, or even apologizing, his FRIEND checked on me. His friend that I don't even know cares more about me than he does.