Is it normal for my high to change all of a sudden?

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My friend has been trying to get me to smoke for months but i always said no until me and my girlfriend broke up and at the time i was really upset about it so i said fuck it i will smoke with you. So we started smoking all the time. when we would smoke we will go around campus talking to everyone, i became a lot more social, i got more friends, partied more, all my friends thought i was funnier, in other words i became cooler. it went from twice a week to everyday. and in the summer i even started buying weed myself and started smoking everyday when i wake up and after work. Now school has started, but im now at a new college away from my friends; im also still smoking everyday. All of a sudden when i smoke with the very few people(can't even call them friends) i start thinking a lot about everything(mostly negative, downgrading, depressing, insecure thoughts) I think bad about everyone, i feel as if people don't understand me, i feel like they don't really like me, i feel no one likes me at my new school, i feel like they all think i am very awkward now which i think is true because i observe myself and listen to things i say, and they do sound boring and can make a person say shut up, im unable to make friends easily now, somehow never know the right or soothing things to say to someone, people don't look at me as someone they respect and want to be friends with, i don't why because i see anything wrong with myself. IIN? if not what is my problem? and why did my high change from when i started smoking till now?

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  • stratman
    12 years ago

    A high just enhances your mood, doesn't change who you are. Sounds like you just aren't as happy in this new situation so you don't enjoy smoking. Take my advice, stop smoking, focus on school and making quality friends. You will probably find a good friend along the way who chiefs, and then you will enjoy it more. But seriously, moderation is the key to enjoying everything. You are a pot head, you smoke way too often. Try making it a weekend only thing at least.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Yes you are experiencing the paranoia now. This is what stopped me from smoking. At first I used to hallucinate, then quickly after I just used to giggle a lot. This lasted about a year and then it just made me paranoid and tired. I have to go to bed every time I smoke it just to get away from everyone. So for me it's not worth doing anymore. Haven't had any for years now.

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  • karmasAbich
    12 years ago

    I was currently trimming with my brother at his friends farm and i was around pounds of weed, we would load bowls into a Bubbler and smoke on as we trim. The only thing is, I was self conscious and had a very paranoid/scared/anxious type of high. I kinda know what you mean. It sucks so bad. :/ going through it again today. 9 straight hours of sitting in a room trimming bud at a place your not very comfortable at can make a big difference on your high.

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  • Thatguy777
    12 years ago

    Go back to your old college? I feel the same way as you do at my school. I don't seem to fit in well. Maybe I should transfer.......

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  • skrill
    12 years ago

    I'm not really sure why this happened for you, but a similar thing happened to me. The difference was that my friends/settings didn't change. I smoked daily for around one year, and towards the end of the year during the last few weeks I started to notice that smoking would make me have depressing thoughts. It usually was a rapid stream of thoughts that bounced around from various upsetting topics, such as dying and there not being anything to look forward to after death, the belief that religions and walks of faith are nonsense and only serve as a comfort for human beings as they try to cope with the fact that life is finite and meaningless, the fear of violence, and even smaller things like thinking about how I had a brief (but fairly serious) opiate addiction and people must surely think negative of me for it (made me uncomfortable around my friends and family). After the high, coming from a sober perspective, the thoughts seemed ridiculous and very self-conscious. Sometimes it was bad enough to cause extreme terror, or some overbearing sense of dread. Needless to say I put the pipe down after a while as the high would not improve. Maybe I will go at it again someday, but I'm doing fine without now. You have to be in a good frame of mind I believe.

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    • jony2
      12 years ago

      very true, thanks for sharing. I've put the pipe down myself but unfortunately i'm going through withdrawals (loss of apatite, insomnia, disturbances in my sleep, fatigue, etc..) which sucks but i know with time things are going to get back to normal

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  • STFU23
    12 years ago

    you just don't feel comfortable anymore where you are so it changes the high. if you start to make new friends there then im pretty sure things would change

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