Is it normal for my fiance to suddenly become a jugallo?
My fiance and I have been together since we were 16, and we were planning to get married after we graduated college which would fall on her 23rd birthday. Everything was perfect, she was beautiful, intelligent, I watched her remodel a kitchen and cook a 5 star meal in it! We had been friends since she was 10, we went to the same church, the same college and we were both interested in the sciences and in the arts... we shared everything.
I live in an apartment just a few minutes a walk away from her dorm, and one night, as I was wrapping up a late night study session, I heard pounding and screaming on my door. I opened it up and it was my fiance. She was screaming about shouting obscenities that I had never heard before from her, and she pulled off her engagement ring and threw it at the wall behind me. She took a bible out of the plastic bag in her hand and threw it at my chest, screaming that she was no longer going to be controlled by religion, society or anything.
I tried to calm her down, and tell her that I don't care whether she goes to church, or college or anything, that I loved her for who she was but she just kept screaming about corporate sheep, societal standards, everything! She came into my apartment and started throwing my text books, my Ipod, she threw my phone on the ground and kicked it all, just shouting at me about how I only loved her because she complied. I tried to tell her that that wasn't true but she kept shouting.
Finally, I had to pin her down onto the couch, and I told her that I wouldn't let her up until she calmed down, because someone would end up calling the cops on us. What she told me has been on my mind for months. "I could never love a corporate drone. You're just another slave, are you even you or do you just do everything that you're told?"
It was the most painful moment of my life. For that moment, I saw our lives pass through my mind. All of what we went through in high school to realize what we were to major in, all of the enlightening late night study sessions, the look on her face, her squeal of excitement as she came outside in her graduation cap and gown to her grad present: a brand new car. Sitting in church watching her aunt get married when we were 13, her leaning over and telling me "That's going to be us someday". It was almost like she took a hammer and smashed it all into pieces.
I got up, and let her leave. She kicked the bible and the stuff on the ground on the way out. This was 6 months ago. I've seen her 2-3 times. She was dressed in messy black clothing with greasy black and pink hair and ICP decor all over her body, smoking, drinking... I'm not a sheltered kid by any means, this doesn't phase me, what bothered me the most, what got my heart pounding, is watching her and her friends walk away and seeing track marks on the arms of her friends. Knowing that she is being exposed to hard drugs. Her parents said she dropped out of college, took her car and has maintained minimal contact since.
I love her with all of my heart, whether or not she wants to attend church with me, or go to college, or anything! I love her no matter how she dresses and I only want her to be safe, but this was so sudden, so unexpected, I don't know how this happened. Someone please tell me, is this a phenomenon, or is this a frequent occurrence? Am I the only one?