Is it normal for me to wish my parents had a better daughter?
Ok so my parents are wonderful they really are. They are a little to strict with the not letting me have a boyfriend until 18, having me on lockdown, and being a litle to traditional with the pericings and tattoos but they are perfect and amazing parents. The thing is I feel as though they deserve a better daughter. I hate when people say someones kids reflect there parents because my parents are serious people and are well raised unlike me. The never asked me to do chores unless i wanted to etc. i lost my virginity at a young age and they do not know. They caught me on birth control and i lied saying that it was for my period because originally it was for that. My parents never hit me and yet i feel like a slut. I did alot of mistakes like i had sex with two people i barely knew and i feel awful. my parents keep thinking im this innocent girl and every time i sleep i cry thinking bout that. I have been with my boyfriend for 2 years but if they met him they would not like him. I am a good student in school, and always help my parents when they need it. i never talk back to them etc but other then that i hate myself Is this normal? i know i did wrong and its a lessoned learned but i really cant go back to the past =/