Is it normal for me to wish my parents had a better daughter?

Ok so my parents are wonderful they really are. They are a little to strict with the not letting me have a boyfriend until 18, having me on lockdown, and being a litle to traditional with the pericings and tattoos but they are perfect and amazing parents. The thing is I feel as though they deserve a better daughter. I hate when people say someones kids reflect there parents because my parents are serious people and are well raised unlike me. The never asked me to do chores unless i wanted to etc. i lost my virginity at a young age and they do not know. They caught me on birth control and i lied saying that it was for my period because originally it was for that. My parents never hit me and yet i feel like a slut. I did alot of mistakes like i had sex with two people i barely knew and i feel awful. my parents keep thinking im this innocent girl and every time i sleep i cry thinking bout that. I have been with my boyfriend for 2 years but if they met him they would not like him. I am a good student in school, and always help my parents when they need it. i never talk back to them etc but other then that i hate myself Is this normal? i know i did wrong and its a lessoned learned but i really cant go back to the past =/

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Based on 38 votes (24 yes)
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  • Lavendar123

    Thanks everyone :)

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  • Crazyperson2

    Why are these people so mean!? i lost my virginity young and i feel my dad deserves so much better than me. i am not a good student either and i feel like such a failure. his disappointment in me is worse than being smacked. you gotta just deal with the feeling. if you think they deserve better than you and you have had sex then you should probably not tell them.

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  • gamegrace

    I'm the same way. They're always complaining about me, and I come to believe that they deserve better than me.

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  • dom180

    None of the things you did are that bad, really. Loads of people do them at the same age as you did, and your parents, probably accidentally, are making you feel uncomfortable about being who you are.

    And, tbh, they are more than "a little strict". They seem to want to control every aspect of your personal and private life. It is called a "private life" because it is. Presuming that you are now adult, even the most invasive parent has no right to pry into your private life at all.

    Still, if you are uncomfortable about doing what you want with your life then it is the parents fault, they are the ones who are making you feel uncomfortable. Talk to them if you unhappy about it.

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    • Lavendar123

      Thanks this really helped :)

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  • helenjewett

    you're living two lives.
    Be honest with yourself and try to figure out who you want to be.

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  • dinz

    If your parents are worthy of a better daughter.

    You could be a better daughter by being open and honest with them.

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  • LaLaLaa

    Ask your parents to meet him and tell them you love him. If they love you then they should accept it.

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  • Truth_teller

    Sex........ Bad girl, idk how old you are but you are probably to young. You should go to church and become sullibant

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  • flutterhigh

    Having tons more sex should make you feel less empty inside, try that.

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