Is it normal for me to ponder on these feelings for little girls?
I go to church and become awe-struck, shaken, and nervous when i see the elegant beauty in little girls. My heart pounds, i almost tremble, and feel like i'm about to be struck dead by the innocent, tender, childish; and sweet faces of pretty little girls staring at me. I want to examine their eyes, features, and hair up close, but shy away; embarrassed to be confronted by their parents. I enjoy their company and love the melodies of their young voices in my ears. One time, when a little girl said hi to me, my heart stopped for a moment and i almost fainted. I apologized in embaressment as i scared her away. I simply can't help these feelings. I don't really want to have sex with them illegally, even though i do fantasize about them and at times; try to hide my erections. I heard dating them is legal where i live and would like to date at least one, but i'm not sure if they're right for me. Did you really love anyone when you were 11 or 12? If you were a little girl, Would you like me back if i confessed my feelings to? why? I'm not sure what to do.