Is it normal for me to like the same girl i did in kindergarten?
Ok, so I've read a lot of these stories and I have seen a fair many that were obviously fake. I am telling you now that this is not one of those. This is practically a life story.
So in kindergarten I had a crush on a girl who to me was the most beautiful in the world. You would think it would just be a phase, but it didn't stop. Then in Februrary of 2002, in the second grade, I was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. I spent 3 and 1/2 year is chemo therapy and had numerous near death experiences. Every night when I went to bed I didn't know if I was going to wake up in the morning.
I've now been in remission for about 6 years and am about to turn 18. The thing is that I am still completely obsessed with the same girl that I had a crush on in kindergarten. And its not like it just jumped all that time. No, I've felt like I'm madly in love with her for most of my life.
Is it normal for me to like the same girl after all this time? I feel like I would give up my life for her. I feel like I am physically attached to her in some strange way. Sometimes I feel like I have attachment issues or something like a traumatic experience making stronger attachments while your still alive or something like that.
I know that this has been long, but I felt like it needed the back story and it is tearing me apart.
So, again is this normal?