Is it normal for me to like sadistic sex?
The thought of the girl actually enjoying sex disgusts me. When I think of sex I think of pinning her down and ramming myself deep inside her. Just the thought of an innocent women wanting to have sex with me and have a brutal awakening is what turns me on. Ramming deep into her throat till she pukes on herself and looks up in shock and fear as she realizes that I'm using her as a fuck toy. Is this normal? To only see sex as using the other as nothing more then a masturbation toy.
When I have sex/random hookup, I have to hold back from being rough with them and I then have vanilla sex instead.
I'm completely disgusted when girls joke about being kinky like having hands tied to the bed. They have NO idea!
All of this is getting in the way of me dating, I haven't had a girlfriend since highschool.