Is it normal for me to fantasize about my friends dick?
My best friend and I lived together for about a year and a half. I was 19 and he was 18 and we even slept in the same bed (it was a queen). For about the first three months we would sleep with our pants on and I would always try to cuddle him and sometimes he would let me and others he would push me off. About a month later when we woke up I was cuddling him and he was letting me, he even put his arm around me. I then put my hand down lower towards his manhood and he didn't stop me so I went even lower (I put my hand into his boxers, feeling his pubes). I felt his cock hit my hand because it was getting hard so I put my hand around it and looked at him, he was smiling. I jerked him off thru his boxers and then pulled them off along with his pants so he was naked. I got naked too and mutually jerked. He came and then we pretended like nothing happened. For the next year or so this became a common occurrence and we even began sucking each other off, usually me doing most of it (he claims to be straight). Sometimes we would begin a few minutes after going to bed and we would get totally naked and he would lay with his ass thrusting my hard cock while I jerked him off for a while before sucking his dick to finish him off, we never did anal. After moving out of his house we didn't talk for a few months and then he invited me over one night and we did the same stuff, with me sucking his dick in the morning before his mom got home. After this we haven't done it again and he always calls me a faggot and says things like "I never asked you to suck my dick blah blah blah" and things like "it's never gonna happen again". I am wondering if it is normal for me to fantasize about these wonderful nights and I am wondering if it will ever happen again! I would love for it to happen again!