Is it normal for me to act and feel this way

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I'm 20 years old and I was wondering if it was normal to act and feel the way I do. You see for a good amount of time, about 6 or 7 years, I have had these urges. I often day dream about killing or severely hurting someone, and for some reason I like the thought of it. In between all these urges I've progressively noticed that I've been acting out in strange ways. All over the course of 6 or 7 years, like I said. I have gotten angrier and I have this overwhelming hatred of just everything. The smallest things will trigger my anger and then I'll have an imaginary conversation with whomever I'm mad at out loud in front of the mirror. Or even just to thin air and then I think of how fun it would be to just bash someone over the head with a bat or something. And it's not always the person I'm mad at it could just be anyone. I feel like I'm always screaming in my head. There have also been many occasions where I'll just stare at my reflection in the mirror for extended periods of time and feel like I'm living in someone else's body. I feel dissaciotiated. Not enough to where I have my own separate name for another part of me and I forget things that happened. But just enough to where I feel like I have this other me just scratching it's way out through my skull. And I swear someday it will come out and I won't be able to stop it. It's not a matter of if, but a matter of when. Now just for clarification, I'm not Emo or a cutter. And I don't want to kill myself like all the other attention seeking people. I'm normal, at least I play it off in front of everyone, I'm healthy (physically), and I have many friends. I would just like some thoughts on what could be the cause for this or if it's normal. Thank you.

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    If you do something cray they'll put you away.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk
    8 years ago

    put on the evenin news and shoot yalls television like a proper adult

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    If this is for real, you need to get some help asap, unless you'd like to wind up dead or in jail. Talk to a shrink.

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    • Steve2!
      8 years ago

      I like how you've created separate accounts in order to up vote yourself in a desperate attempt not to get kicked off this site. You must have an extremely high IQ to have figured that out.

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      • thegypsysailor
        8 years ago

        I have one account and one account only. IIN is not worth the time it would take to make a second account to me. If I won't say it on my tgs account, then I won't say it, period.
        If banned, I would not make up a new screen name and crawl back on my belly like some sniveling little crybaby.
        I can't see the point. If I'm not wanted and get banned, I'm cool with that. What's your excuse, you ball-less freak? Apparently you've been informed that your presence on here is no longer desired, but you keep creeping back with new screen names like some sort of pouting child.
        One would think that if you really had an IQ over 80, you'd get the hint and stay away.

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