Is it normal for her to still be with me??
Hi. I apologize right out for the length, but it is nessicary. I've been with a girl for 18 months now, and we lead a very happy relationship most of the time, and she is a perfectly normal person. I, on the other hand, have many problems.
Whenever she is hurt to any sort of severity (eg. Cut, bruise, period, etc.) i freak out. I can't stop apologizing and I will even hurt myself to "make up" for not being able to do anything about it.
I'm also a very quiet person, and don't voice my opinion too often. But thats not my worst problem. I have a mental condition we just call CV (clinical vampirism) ((im not trolling I SWEAR)) i literaly cannot handle the sight of blood and immediately want to drink it all. Within the last year of our relationship i have been specificly interested in drinking hers, though i havent tried it, because im scared to how I will react. When I see or even think too much about blood i will fall into a trance-like state, or even worse, get terribly scared and have slight hallucenations. These can happen as often as once every two days, and normally occur on dates.
Due to these issues i try to be the best guy i can to her. Most guys would call me "whipped" but I need to be nice because its my nature and im afraid she'll leave me. I hope someone believes me, because i need insight on this serious problem. Why is she with me still, and what can I do to help her or myself? Any ideas on any of my questions would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.